what dreams may come

Aren't dreams amazing? I find myself truly fascinated by them. I read an article a few years back about dreams, and it was awesome (and I sadly cannot find it). For instance, if you want to dream about someone or something, 15 minutes in to your lovely night's sleep, you will no longer dream of that certain thing. I'm sure there are exceptions, but it makes sense for the most part. So when someone says, "Dreaming of you", they are basically full of shit. There. I said it.

I've been meaning to keep a notebook by my night stand so when I wake up in the morning I can jot down my dreams from the previous night. I find that as I get older, I can retain my dreams more so than when I was a kid. How many times have you started to tell someone about a crazy dream you had, and halfway through you forget? More times than I can count.

Lately, I have been having some messed up dreams. I mean, the type of dreams that border on nightmares/did I take PCP before bed time messed up. I was talking to my friend Sarah about one of them from a few nights ago. It involved me going to Kentucky for a wedding, finding out that my Aunt Patty had 2 other kids (a 7 year old and a 2 year old), my older cousins getting pissed at me for not knowing they had 2 younger brothers, meeting Ina Garten in a book store (for those of you who aren't totally cool like me, she hosts a cooking show on Food Network called Barefoot Contessa), and here is the clincher: there was a serial killer on the loose. I kid you not, it was the weirdest tale. And let me tell you, it was WAY TOO REAL. I woke up with my heart racing.

You spend most of your life asleep, but at least you get some entertainment out of it.

why deadliest catch is awesome

So, recently I have become mildly obsessed with Deadliest Catch. What is Deadliest Catch, you say? One of the VERY VERY few GOOD reality shows out there to date. Probably because it is on the Discovery Channel, and not VH1.

I remember a few weeks back to when I stumbled across this little gem. It's not a new show by any means (this is its 5th season), but it was new to me. I had heard of it before, but I would actually just change the channel before even giving it a chance. After watching a few episodes of Cash Cab (I love random trivia facts), Deadliest Catch came on. Now I don't know if it was laziness on my part to change the channel or what, but I was hooked.

Lucky for me there was a MARATHON of episodes all 4th of July weekend. So I of course DVR'ed all of them, and in the process got my mother addicted as well.

So what makes me like this show so much? Maybe it's because I get to witness one of the most dangerous jobs in the world, and the fact that Mother Nature is in total control of everything. Maybe it's the fact that the captains on the show crack me up. Maybe it's the fact that you actually care about each person on the boats.

Check it out if you get a chance, because you will really love it. Sig on the Northwestern is by far my favorite, because he cusses like a sailor, and has the wittiest comebacks. My kind of man.

Smile

So I've been looking at old photo albums, and I must say, my sister and I were pretty cute kids. I have freakishly looked the exact same since pretty much the day I was born (no lie). I came across a picture, and I couldn't help but smile. I mean, when is the the last time you got THIS EXCITED over anything, let alone a little snow globe? I miss opening a simple present and having a look of shock and awe come across my face, and having my mom there to capture it on film. Kinda puts things in perspective. So just take a moment and realize that it's the little things in life that make you smile.

And the infamous McDonald's picture. Now that's service with a smile.

hilarious

So I just got home from the Elks (yeah I know...but it is a damn good time sometimes), and it honestly was a hoot, as Steve McKee would say. I haven't laughed that hard in a long time, and the company was honestly ridiculous. And it was pretty awesome that we all drank for free the whole night (genius juice=pretty amazing...and I hate hard liquor). Man I love my friends.

P.S. Bruno was just as ridiculous as I thought it would be.

finally

So I have been getting some threats that I haven't been doing enough posts, so here I am (I'm pointing at YOU Abby).

So when you don't have a job, and you are looking for one, you have a lot of time on your hands. I have done enough cleaning to feel like I should have a professional maid's license. Do those exist even? I know that if I ever hired a maid, I would want her certified (not that I would...cleaning is my thing).

I have had many a conversation with friends about what the hell we are going to do with our lives. These conversations normally end with us freaking out, questioning why we majored in what we did, and could we have picked a worse time to graduate? While the last thing was out of our hands, the things we did to get here we have to own up to. Sure, looking back now it would have been awesome to major in Nursing or some medical-related field. People are always going to get sick, so that will be in demand. But for some reason or another, we didn't choose that path, instead opting for teachers and accountants and trainers. Such is life.

You know how many times I wished that I had a different major? More times then I wished I had a dog that didn't poop in the kitchen. That is A LOT. Speaking of that, Baxter, PLEASE. You are almost 9 months old. It's time to kick that habit. However, while there are times that I regret what I chose to do with life, I love it. I miss it. I want to do something with everything I learned in the past 4 years. Except accounting. That shit I will PASS on. Nothing like a big slap in the face in the form of a big fat D on your final grades sophomore year. Taking the class twice was just the remedy. I hate New Zealanders. Is that what they are called? I could care less. I'm not even looking it up because Tony, you aren't worth it.

Thank God I have supportive friends and family, because now is the time when you need them. And I stay positive most of the time, but I have my days. Who doesn't? I never said I was perfect. But I guess what I am trying to say is that I am ready for life. Not that I haven't enjoyed kicking back for the past 2 months. As my lovely friend Jeni says, "You have your whole life to work. Enjoy it while it lasts." And I have. Life is finite. There is a beginning, a middle, and though no one likes to talk about it, an end. Remember that the next time you think you are having one hell of a bad day. One of my favorite quotes: "Just when you think you have it bad, someone out there has it 10 times worse."

In times like this, those words ring true in everyones' ears.